<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:googleplay="http://www.google.com/schemas/play-podcasts/1.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[StrengthAxis: Results]]></title><description><![CDATA[Personal transformation, functional health, and the invisible habits that build real strength.]]></description><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/s/dianas-journey</link><image><url>https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VfCL!,w_256,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F00ce1fff-e040-4d36-af72-a513432029a8_630x630.png</url><title>StrengthAxis: Results</title><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/s/dianas-journey</link></image><generator>Substack</generator><lastBuildDate>Wed, 20 May 2026 06:39:38 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/feed" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><copyright><![CDATA[John Parker]]></copyright><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><webMaster><![CDATA[strengthaxis@substack.com]]></webMaster><itunes:owner><itunes:email><![CDATA[strengthaxis@substack.com]]></itunes:email><itunes:name><![CDATA[John Parker]]></itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author><![CDATA[John Parker]]></itunes:author><googleplay:owner><![CDATA[strengthaxis@substack.com]]></googleplay:owner><googleplay:email><![CDATA[strengthaxis@substack.com]]></googleplay:email><googleplay:author><![CDATA[John Parker]]></googleplay:author><itunes:block><![CDATA[Yes]]></itunes:block><item><title><![CDATA[Mental Health Is Often Physical Health in Disguise]]></title><description><![CDATA[For years, I thought exhaustion was proof I was doing life right.]]></description><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/mental-health-is-often-physical-health</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/mental-health-is-often-physical-health</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[John Parker]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Thu, 07 May 2026 17:49:57 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/02808e7f-002d-492d-86d6-6b923c994e22_3024x3780.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!7AYu!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8452b2e2-e697-4eff-aac6-167d72df8a64_3024x3780.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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My days were packed. My mind was always racing.<br><br>Staying busy felt productive. Rest felt like falling behind.</p><p>Looking back now, I can see how disconnected I was from what my body was actually telling me.</p><p>I was exhausted, anxious, inflamed, and mentally foggy - yet I kept trying to push harder.</p><p>Not because I was weak. Because I didn&#8217;t yet understand how deeply physical health influences emotional wellbeing.</p><div><hr></div><h3><em>The Hidden Cost of Always &#8220;Powering Through&#8221;</em></h3><p>There was a time when I felt like my nervous system was permanently switched on.</p><p>Corporate environments often reinforce this pace.<br><br>You&#8217;re trained to sit still for hours, ignore your body&#8217;s signals, and perform at a high level regardless of how you feel. Breaks feel unproductive. Movement feels indulgent.</p><p>I became so conditioned to this mindset that even after leaving those roles, I have to consciously remind myself to step away (or take my work outside) every so often.</p><p>John has helped me see how powerful it can be to change environments throughout the day - to get outside, move, reset mentally.<br><br>Those small shifts have been instrumental in helping me rebuild both my physical energy and mental clarity.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qAj-!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc3de009e-f69f-409e-a768-05bdedb57a8e_5712x4284.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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this.<br><br>Albert Einstein was known for long daily walks.<br>Steve Jobs conducted important meetings while walking.<br><br>Movement and sunlight weren&#8217;t distractions, they were tools for better thinking.</p><p><strong>When your physiology improves, your entire experience of life changes.</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!PPqW!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd4754d14-8ead-428c-b4c4-05056c99052b_333x500.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!PPqW!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd4754d14-8ead-428c-b4c4-05056c99052b_333x500.jpeg 424w, 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Einstein</h6><div><hr></div><h3><em>Slowing Down Was the Real Upgrade</em></h3><p>For years, I believed that constant motion was a sign of success.</p><p>But when I finally allowed myself to slow down - to create real space in my schedule, my environment, and even my thoughts - everything began to change.</p><p>I became more present, more intentional with my energy, and more aware of what actually moved my life forward.</p><p>It was almost shocking how much growth could happen when I stopped trying to operate at full speed all the time.</p><p>That shift didn&#8217;t make me less ambitious.<br>It made me wiser about where to direct my effort.</p><p>I remember sitting outside in the sun one afternoon with nowhere to rush to. I tended to my plants and listened to sounds of nature.<br><br>That would have felt terrifying to the old me.<br><br>Instead, it felt like relief.</p><p>Sometimes transformation isn&#8217;t about pushing harder.<br><strong>It&#8217;s about learning when to pause - and trusting that space can be just as powerful as action.</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nUFq!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff051edef-2c16-48b0-83af-d3e1fd6fad3c_4284x5712.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!nUFq!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff051edef-2c16-48b0-83af-d3e1fd6fad3c_4284x5712.heic 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Laguna Beach, CA date with JP.</h6><div><hr></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/mental-health-is-often-physical-health/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/mental-health-is-often-physical-health/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><div><hr></div><h3><em>The Hidden Cost of Overthinking</em></h3><p>There was also a mental component I had to confront.</p><p>I used to believe that staying busy and constantly thinking ahead meant I was productive.<br><br>In reality, I was overstimulated, exhausted, and disconnected from my body.</p><p>I could mentally rehearse conversations that never even happened. <strong>Olympic-level overthinking but I won zero medals.</strong> </p><p>I thought overthinking meant I was being productive.</p><p>Really, I was just keeping my nervous system stuck in stress.</p><p>As writer D&#233;j&#224; Rae describes:</p><blockquote><p>&#8220;When we overthink, we create problems that are not real.<br>And in doing so, we destroy our current state of peace.&#8221;</p></blockquote><p>This hit me hard.</p><p>Because when your nervous system is constantly in a state of anticipation, urgency, or worry - recovery becomes nearly impossible.</p><p>Sleep, hormones and your energy all suffer.<br>Training becomes harder and your progress slows.</p><p>Learning to slow down wasn&#8217;t laziness.<br>It was nervous system regulation.</p><p>And that changed everything for me.</p><h4>Slowing down didn&#8217;t reduce my output.<br>It increased the quality of everything I did.</h4><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!7_YE!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F72e5ae37-e5e3-4806-8d70-2f87fd9d169e_3024x4032.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!7_YE!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F72e5ae37-e5e3-4806-8d70-2f87fd9d169e_3024x4032.jpeg 424w, 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more aligned.</p><p>Sometimes people who once felt exciting or familiar no longer fit the direction you&#8217;re heading. That can be painful. It can also be necessary.</p><p>You can care about people and still recognize that certain dynamics no longer support your wellbeing.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!abu8!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff20e59c9-98dc-4332-aea8-c895582fe378_1004x1786.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!abu8!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff20e59c9-98dc-4332-aea8-c895582fe378_1004x1786.jpeg 424w, 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stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>A great post from Steven Bartlett I saved 2 years ago. </h6><div><hr></div><h3><em>The Social Anxiety No One Talks About</em></h3><p>There was a time when I didn&#8217;t even realize how much of social life revolved around managing discomfort.</p><p>Loud bars. Packed parties&#8230;. Constant stimulation.<br>Trying to be &#8220;on.&#8221; Trying to be fun. Trying not to feel awkward. Trying to always be liked by everyone.</p><p>Drinking made it easier.</p><p>Not because I loved alcohol.<br>Because it helped me relax faster than I knew how to on my own.</p><p>It softened the nervous energy, made conversations feel smoother, and made me feel less self-aware.</p><p>For a while, that felt like confidence&#8230; But eventually I noticed the trade-off.</p><ul><li><p>Poor sleep.</p></li><li><p>Low energy the next day.</p></li><li><p>More anxiety - not less.<br></p><p>Workouts that felt harder than they should, if i could even work up the strength to start.<br><br>A nervous system that never truly felt calm.</p></li></ul><div><hr></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg" width="347" height="234.40699300699302" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/c831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:483,&quot;width&quot;:715,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:347,&quot;bytes&quot;:50312,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;A strong person can always be found alone, a weak person can always be  found in crowd&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:null,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="A strong person can always be found alone, a weak person can always be  found in crowd" title="A strong person can always be found alone, a weak person can always be  found in crowd" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!F-eT!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc831351e-dedf-470d-af90-30ab205cc03b_715x483.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>That one New Year&#8217;s Eve in San Diego was a turning point.<br>Instead of going out, John and I stayed in. No parties, no pressure to perform.</p><p>At first it felt&#8230; strange.<br>Like I was missing something important.</p><p><strong>Then I realized I wasn&#8217;t missing out.<br>I was finally feeling at peace.</strong></p><p>Now we&#8217;ve created a different tradition.<br>Every New Year&#8217;s Day we do something physically challenging - usually a long hike.</p><p>It&#8217;s become one of my favorite rituals.<br>A way to start the year feeling strong instead of depleted.</p><div><hr></div><p>It took months for that shift to fully settle in.<br><strong>FOMO</strong> (Fear of missing out) doesn&#8217;t disappear overnight.<br>Especially when social conditioning runs deep.</p><p>But what I gained was far more valuable:</p><p>Better recovery, stable energy &amp; clearer thinking.<br>Real confidence, not borrowed confidence.</p><div><hr></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!CB6I!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9a91480c-41d6-4a15-99ce-cc2e3d11c9cb.heic 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!CB6I!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9a91480c-41d6-4a15-99ce-cc2e3d11c9cb.heic" width="1456" height="1092" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/9a91480c-41d6-4a15-99ce-cc2e3d11c9cb.heic&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1092,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:3503786,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/heic&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/192011382?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9a91480c-41d6-4a15-99ce-cc2e3d11c9cb.heic&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" 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That has changed the way people socialize. There&#8217;s less freedom to be messy. More awareness of long-term consequences.</p><p><strong>But there&#8217;s also a growing understanding that numbing anxiety isn&#8217;t the same as resolving it.</strong></p><p>Learning to regulate stress through movement, sunlight, sleep, and meaningful routines creates a different kind of strength.</p><p>A quieter strength.<br>The kind that moves your life forward instead of forcing you to spend days recovering from one night.</p><div><hr></div><p>I don&#8217;t believe alcohol itself is the problem.<br><br>It&#8217;s when it becomes the default tool for relaxing, socializing, or escaping stress that it can quietly hold people back.</p><p>Once I saw that pattern in my own life, it became much easier to step out of it.</p><p>What changed wasn&#8217;t my desire to connect with others: I still love dinners, gatherings, spontaneous plans, and deep conversations.</p><p>The difference now is that my focus is no longer on what I&#8217;m drinking or how quickly I can relax.</p><p>It&#8217;s on the connection itself. </p><p>On being present.<br>On remembering the conversations.<br>On waking up the next day feeling energized instead of depleted.</p><p>Ironically, stepping away from relying on alcohol didn&#8217;t make my social life smaller &#8212; it made it more intentional.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic" width="1456" height="1092" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1092,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:1577690,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/heic&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/192011382?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!bPok!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F13ac8c64-8657-4470-8346-577e31f50f36_4032x3024.heic 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>And I definitely don&#8217;t miss the days I was too hungover to get out of bed. Although Nala probably appreciated the extra cuddles.</h6><div><hr></div><h3><em>Physical Health Changes Everything</em></h3><p>As I began improving my sleep, nutrition, training approach, and daily movement habits, something unexpected happened.</p><p>My mental resilience improved dramatically.</p><p>Challenges that once felt overwhelming became manageable.<br>Illnesses that used to linger became milder and shorter.<br>My energy stabilized. My mood became more predictable.</p><p><em><strong>I didn&#8217;t become stress-free but I became better equipped to handle stress.</strong></em></p><p>This is a powerful distinction.</p><p>Mental health is not only about mindset.<br>It is deeply connected to inflammation levels, recovery capacity, hormonal balance, and nervous system regulation.</p><p><em><strong>When the body is supported, the mind often follows.</strong></em></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!A9pe!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9cb73d76-1044-4e53-9fe5-7a625b293194_1004x1786.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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that slowly drain your health and potential.</p><p>Real growth requires courage, but it also requires patience.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!EM7s!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F87b5910e-ec58-424d-9560-e34b227695e2_4032x3024.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!EM7s!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F87b5910e-ec58-424d-9560-e34b227695e2_4032x3024.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!EM7s!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F87b5910e-ec58-424d-9560-e34b227695e2_4032x3024.heic 848w, 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Unassisted]]></description><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/a-case-for-sobriety</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/a-case-for-sobriety</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[John Parker]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 02 May 2026 16:01:02 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!b0Nu!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddcc34f9-73ce-4709-8ef6-0c889c2b9734_1280x719.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>A quick note before we get into this&#8212;</p><p>Our Preferred Elite Member Rate is still open through May 4th.</p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">StrengthAxis is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div><p>If Elite has been on your mind this week, I wanted to mention it before we close things out.</p><p>A lot of what I&#8217;m writing about here&#8212;learning how to adjust, knowing when to push and when to pull back, and building something sustainable&#8212;is exactly where coaching makes the biggest difference.</p><p>Base gives you the programming.</p><p>Elite gives you the coaching.</p><p>Most people don&#8217;t need more workouts. They need help applying what they&#8217;re already doing in a way that actually works long term.</p><p>That&#8217;s where Elite comes in.</p><p>For a limited time, you can still upgrade and lock in <strong>10% off for life</strong>.</p><p>If you want more guidance on how to apply all of this in your own training and life, this is the best time to make the move.</p><p>&#8212;</p><p>Now into today&#8217;s article.</p><div><hr></div><h2><em><strong>A Case for Sobriety</strong></em></h2><h4><em>Clear, Present, Unassisted</em></h4><blockquote><p><em>The meaning of life isn&#8217;t something you find.<br>It&#8217;s something you live into - clear, present, and unassisted.</em></p></blockquote><div><hr></div><p>There was a point in my life where I realized something most people don&#8217;t confront until much later, if at all.</p><p><strong><a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_condition">The human condition.</a></strong></p><p>Why are we here?<br>What is the purpose of consciousness?<br>What am I actually supposed to do with this life?</p><p>If you sit with those questions long enough, you don&#8217;t spiral, you just&#8230; drift.</p><p>Not dramatically. Just a quiet hum in the background:</p><p><em>What&#8217;s the point?</em></p><div><hr></div><p>Growing up in Ramona, CA, I checked all the boxes early.</p><ul><li><p>I was a stellar student - 4.53 GPA, early acceptance to UCSD.</p></li><li><p>I was a great athlete - varsity football &amp; track &amp; field.</p></li><li><p>I was recognized locally, featured in the Ramona Sentinel.</p></li></ul><p>And that kind of early validation teaches you something, whether you realize it or not:</p><p>Your value is tied to performance: <strong>being seen, being somebody</strong>.</p><p>The problem is - high school ends, but perfectionism can be a lifelong problem.</p><p>I had the realization early: life doesn&#8217;t care what you were at 17.</p><p>You have to keep proving it.<br>Even if you don&#8217;t want to.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Although I made the front page of the sport&#8217;s section nearly weekly, I was always uncomfortable with the attention.</h6><div><hr></div><p>I had developed a moral compass. I grew up in a Christian household, attending weekly services with a clear sense of right and wrong.</p><p>But if I&#8217;m being honest, it was more inherited than embodied.</p><p>I had the framework. I just hadn&#8217;t tested it.</p><div><hr></div><p>That changed when life applied pressure.</p><p>My parents&#8217; divorce exposed something in me I hadn&#8217;t fully seen before - the part that retreats, avoids, and looks for a way out when things get heavy.</p><p>Around that same time, I stepped into a bigger world - UC San Diego, track and field, a new environment where no one knew my past.</p><p>It felt like a reset.</p><p>But looking back, it was just a cleaner version of escape.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!b0Nu!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fddcc34f9-73ce-4709-8ef6-0c889c2b9734_1280x719.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>I knew from a young age that I was made to sprint. Escondido, CA.</h6><div><hr></div><p><strong>Cannabis was the first thing that actually worked.</strong></p><p>For the first time, the noise quieted: my nervous system downshifted and I could get through the day without that constant internal pressure.</p><p>It didn&#8217;t feel like a problem. It felt like a solution.</p><blockquote><p>It wasn&#8217;t about getting high.<br>It was about finally feeling normal.</p></blockquote><p>From there, everything else followed.</p><ol><li><p>Alcohol became normal</p></li><li><p>Partying became routine</p></li><li><p>Psychedelics entered the picture.</p></li></ol><p>And again, I justified it.</p><p>Because externally, nothing was falling apart. And if anything, I was still progressing.</p><p><strong>That&#8217;s what makes it dangerous.</strong></p><p>You don&#8217;t need to hit rock bottom to be off track. You just need to be slightly disconnected from who you&#8217;re supposed to become.</p><p>And the more you rely on something external to regulate your internal state, the further you drift.</p><p>Not dramatically. Not all at once. But consistently.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg" width="640" height="640" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:640,&quot;width&quot;:640,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:83419,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" title="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oxwc!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F17d7d03f-db92-41fb-9636-83e7d5b73d27_640x640.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>These photos spark memories of a life well-lived. Though I was clouded by substance abuse, I always knew that nature was healing. Bah&#237;a Panam&#225;, Costa Rica ca 2014.</h6><div><hr></div><p>By my early-to-mid 20s, I had achieved ostensible success:</p><ul><li><p>Top trainer</p></li><li><p>Strong, lean, visible</p></li><li><p>Published</p></li><li><p>Fitness modeling</p></li><li><p>A growing following</p></li></ul><p>From the outside, everything looked aligned. So I justified the rest&#8230;</p><p>&#8220;Yeah, drugs and alcohol might be a problem for some people&#8230;<br>but I&#8217;ve got my shit together.&#8221;</p><p>That&#8217;s the trap.</p><p>Not rock bottom, but functional success.</p><p>Because when things are going well, you can rationalize almost anything.<br></p><blockquote><p>You don&#8217;t need to fall apart to be off track.<br>You just need to be slightly disconnected - and still winning.</p></blockquote><div class="image-gallery-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;gallery&quot;:{&quot;images&quot;:[{&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/7f2a66a4-2793-43f8-babb-33ae3cc23ea6_3456x2234.png&quot;},{&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ee4c4eb9-d661-4eb1-881c-1276be57cb31_3456x2234.png&quot;}],&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;staticGalleryImage&quot;:{&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/2cac9109-3e87-4c66-ae3a-09dec561b9fb_1456x720.png&quot;}},&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true}"></div><h6>Chasing Trail - an article I wrote for Pacific San Diego Magazine (acquired by The San Diego Union Tribune). </h6><div><hr></div><p>There wasn&#8217;t a dramatic turning point: no intervention and no crisis.</p><p>Just a growing awareness that something was off.</p><p>I was still performing. Still progressing. Still &#8220;<em>that guy</em>&#8221; on paper.</p><p>But internally, I knew:</p><p>I wasn&#8217;t operating at full capacity. And unfortunately, once you see that - you can&#8217;t unsee it.</p><div><hr></div><p>The substances weren&#8217;t destroying my life.</p><p>They were <strong>dulling</strong> it.</p><p>Their beauty was that the were blunting sharp edges, softened my discomfort, and took away enough pressure to avoid my impending growth.</p><p>You don&#8217;t just remove pain, you remove clarity. You don&#8217;t just quiet anxiety, you quiet awareness.</p><p>Anything that numbs you distances you from who you could become.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg" width="1366" height="768" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:768,&quot;width&quot;:1366,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:266368,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!KX8M!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F12e26092-0888-4999-bc72-9ac34eaf1e14_1366x768.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>There was a period of about 3 years where I retreated to the hills to recharge - hiking and trail running felt like the only things that grounded me away from my habits and mental stress.</h6><div><hr></div><p>Sobriety didn&#8217;t start as a declaration.</p><p>It started as an experiment. What happens if I just&#8230; stop?</p><ul><li><p>No weed</p></li><li><p>No alcohol</p></li><li><p>No psychedelics</p></li></ul><h4>No shortcuts.</h4><p>Just me - fully exposed.</p><p>And at first, it wasn&#8217;t empowering. It was uncomfortable. How would I ever deal with the &#8220;<a href="https://www.namchak.org/community/blog/the-buddhist-story-of-the-monkey-mind/?gad_source=1&amp;gad_campaignid=22656127910&amp;gbraid=0AAAAABqC3VEFXkP8nPY6RhT4fsl89paQl&amp;gclid=CjwKCAjwtcHPBhADEiwAWo3sJieRa2a0Qa4wwFa7jc14o0Ujv5qS6NmOKv6O0fSAxuLPb7u2L6r2IBoCl1QQAvD_BwE">monkey mind</a>&#8221; I fought so hard to avoid?</p><p>Not in a clinical withdrawal sense - but in a behavioral one.</p><p>The urge was still there: what would I do if I needed an escape? What would I do without the &#8220;little buddy&#8221; in my pocket to bail me out?</p><p>Except now, there was no outlet.</p><p>So I had to sit with it. And that&#8217;s where most people tap out.</p><p>Not because they can&#8217;t,  but because they don&#8217;t want to meet the version of themselves they&#8217;ve been managing.</p><p></p><blockquote><p>Anything that numbs you doesn&#8217;t just reduce pain.<br>It reduces your ability to become who you&#8217;re meant to be.</p></blockquote><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>Author&#8217;s Note:</strong> <em>Around 2014, I was working at a health club after moving within San Diego. 

As a newer trainer, I had to complete floor hours each week - so I volunteered for the worst shifts: Friday nights until close and Sunday mornings at open. 

It wasn&#8217;t random. I knew I needed constraints. If I didn&#8217;t build structure into my life, I&#8217;d default back to partying. So I did what I could to make that path harder to access.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg" width="960" height="1280" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/b9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1280,&quot;width&quot;:960,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:385191,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!oB2Q!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fb9034fef-68ae-4694-ab3c-b4b082fac334_960x1280.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Even during this difficult time in my life, my peak experience never changed: exploring new territory. Havasu Falls, Havasupai, AZ. </h6><div><hr></div><p>Once the buffer is gone, you have two options:</p><p>Replace it&#8230;<br>or rebuild yourself.</p><p>I chose to <strong>rebuild</strong>.</p><p>And this is where something unexpected happened: everything I believed about training started to apply to life.</p><ol><li><p>Minimum Effective Dose</p></li><li><p>Consistency over intensity</p></li><li><p>Structure over chaos.</p></li></ol><p>I didn&#8217;t need to become a different person overnight: I needed to become slightly better at handling reality - day by day.</p><div><hr></div><p>What I didn&#8217;t expect was that this pattern wasn&#8217;t limited to substances.</p><p><strong>It was showing up in my training too.</strong></p><p>At the height of my cannabis and psychedelic use, I was also deep in what I&#8217;d now call an <a href="https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9869993/">exercise addiction</a>.</p><ul><li><p>I didn&#8217;t miss days</p></li><li><p>Two-a-days were normal</p></li><li><p>Seven days a week was standard.</p></li><li><p>I would punish myself after a night of the &#8220;munchies.&#8221;</p></li></ul><p>And this went on for years - From the outside, it looked disciplined. But underneath it- it was the same pattern.</p><p>I wasn&#8217;t just training to improve. I was training to manage myself. To be perfect.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg" width="1456" height="2588" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:2588,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:1789166,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!ABHv!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fff9d365d-80ab-48c3-a7c9-5609aad6ef40_1999x3553.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Much before my MED revelations, I lived for double day training. Mission Trails, San Diego, CA.</h6><p></p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><em><strong>Author&#8217;s Note: </strong>Perfectionism.

I&#8217;d be lying if I said it doesn&#8217;t still affect me. For most of my life, I tied my worth to achievement - if I wasn&#8217;t progressing, I didn&#8217;t feel like myself. It took nearly two decades of reflection to realize my purpose isn&#8217;t to be admired, but to be of service. 

That shift changed everything. I&#8217;ve softened the edges - not by lowering my standards, but by becoming more aware of my flaws - and redirected my energy into what actually matters: coaching my community, learning, writing, and exploring the wilderness of the Western United States. 

For years, I carried anxiety around not becoming a professional athlete. Eventually, I saw it clearly: I&#8217;m a professional coach - and that aligns far more with who I am and what I&#8217;m here to do.</em></pre></div><div><hr></div><p>Exercise hides this better than anything.</p><p><strong>Because it&#8217;s praised.</strong></p><p>You build a physique. You build an identity. You get reinforced for it.</p><p>But just like anything else, it can become a dependency: A way to avoid stillness. A way to outrun your thoughts. A way to justify everything else.</p><p>And I was doing all of that.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic" width="1244" height="2138" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/ccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:2138,&quot;width&quot;:1244,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:446046,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/heic&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RtQU!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fccadcdc6-4c26-405c-af2d-5515e22b8b6e_1244x2138.heic 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>I played football from 5th grade through my senior year in high school. I was primarily a tailback, but would serve as a utility player at wide receiver or slotback. I played defensive back but always preferred free safety. I started both ways and had a great career overall.<br><br>I was the fastest sprinter and football player in the Valley League ca. 2000-2004.</h6><div><hr></div><p>Part of it was the environment: early social media rewarded intensity.</p><p>Crazy workouts. Random variation. &#8220;Hardcore&#8221; sessions.</p><p>That&#8217;s what got attention. So that&#8217;s what I did&#8230;</p><p>Random acts of variety became the product. But, looking back, a lot of it wasn&#8217;t intentional training - It was performance: content.</p><p>And at some point, I had to ask:</p><p><em>Is this actually making me better?</em></p><p><em>Or just making me look like I am?</em></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4JbT!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F736651a9-5066-4114-ae45-2c3462fc0926_1067x1067.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!4JbT!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F736651a9-5066-4114-ae45-2c3462fc0926_1067x1067.jpeg 424w, 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Ramona, CA.</h6><div><hr></div><p>Eventually, it caught up: not catastrophically, but quietly.</p><p>If I kept going like this, there would be consequences.</p><ol><li><p>Physically</p></li><li><p>Mentally</p></li><li><p>Long-term</p></li></ol><p>Because exercise follows the same rule as everything else: more is not better.</p><p><strong>Better is better.</strong></p><div><hr></div><p>When I finally started applying my own program design, really applying it, everything changed.</p><h4>Minimum Effective Dose<br><br>Intentional volume<br><br>Recovery built in, not earned</h4><p>For the first time, training wasn&#8217;t something I needed to do: it became something I chose to do.</p><p>And that gave me space to recover, think, and not rely on constant output.</p><div><hr></div><p>Exercise is a lot like eating.</p><p>You need it and you benefit from it daily.</p><p>But you can also develop unhealthy patterns around it, which is easily recognized with food, but we&#8217;re slower to recognize it with training.</p><p><strong>Overtraining just looks more socially acceptable.</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!zAGq!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9e2b2c9c-6641-43e6-b2aa-e66a63a630ec.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!zAGq!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9e2b2c9c-6641-43e6-b2aa-e66a63a630ec.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!zAGq!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F9e2b2c9c-6641-43e6-b2aa-e66a63a630ec.heic 848w, 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stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6><a href="https://www.alltrails.com/trail/us/california/vernal-and-nevada-falls-via-the-mist-trail">Mist Trail to Vernal and Nevada Falls </a>- Yosemite National Park, CA.</h6><div><hr></div><p>Now, this is still something I&#8217;m refining.</p><p>I&#8217;m a hard charger by nature and I like to push and hit it hard.</p><p>I love being outside - hiking, riding, doing hard things.</p><p>But if the goal is health, <em>real</em> health, there has to be balance.</p><p>This give and take means recovery isn&#8217;t option, IT&#8217;S PART OF TRAINING.</p><p>And now, in my 40s, that&#8217;s the edge I&#8217;m working on: Not doing more, but doing what&#8217;s necessary, and no more than that.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!GJIr!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1d5f9886-2be1-472f-94fb-748076ad358c_1696x1696.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!GJIr!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1d5f9886-2be1-472f-94fb-748076ad358c_1696x1696.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!GJIr!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F1d5f9886-2be1-472f-94fb-748076ad358c_1696x1696.jpeg 848w, 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class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Mistakes are only mistakes if we don&#8217;t learn from them. Santee Boulders, San Diego, CA.</h6><div><hr></div><p>Sobriety didn&#8217;t give me perfection: it gave me clarity.</p><ol><li><p>My sleep improved</p></li><li><p>My training sharpened</p></li><li><p>My relationship with Diana deepened</p></li><li><p>My thoughts became quieter, but more intentional</p></li></ol><p>And spiritually, things started to make sense.</p><p>Not in theory, but in practice.</p><p></p><blockquote><p>You don&#8217;t find God in escape.<br>You find Him in presence.</p></blockquote><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>Author&#8217;s Note </strong><em>There was a period in my life where I experienced what I can only describe as self-induced depression. 

Looking back, removing alcohol and the party lifestyle was the first step out. At the time, I thought I knew God. But I had stepped away from the practice -  from worship, from discipline, from showing up. 

So I asked for help. Not out of habit - but because I had run out of my own answers. What I was given wasn&#8217;t relief. It was the opportunity to do the work - with His support. 

That&#8217;s when it became clear: I had forsaken God. But He had never forsaken me. He was there when I wasn&#8217;t even showing up for myself. 

From that point forward, I made a decision: I won&#8217;t turn away again.

If I&#8217;m being honest, I didn&#8217;t get out on my own. It took God - and Diana.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg" width="1456" height="1456" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1456,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:2056663,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/195549812?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RcGV!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F97732419-4ad0-4f62-9c64-5c0fb35d8dda_3143x3143.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Appreciation. La Jolla, CA.</h6><div><hr></div><p>At some point, it stops being something you&#8217;re trying to do and becomes who you are.</p><p>Not:</p><p><strong>&#8220;I&#8217;m trying to stay sober.&#8221;</strong></p><p>But:</p><p><strong>I don&#8217;t need anything outside of myself to function.</strong></p><p>That&#8217;s a different level of freedom that&#8217;s not dependent on environment, mood, or substances.</p><p>Just&#8230;</p><h4>Clear.<br><br>Present.<br><br>Unassisted.</h4><p></p><blockquote><p>Sobriety isn&#8217;t about restriction.<br>It&#8217;s about removing everything that stands between you and clarity.</p></blockquote><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!L5Uw!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F4e5f40d9-443d-4739-8804-88895335cc0b_960x540.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div 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On a medical mission trip to Guatemala, I was a non-medical volunteer. They assigned me to &#8220;stover&#8221; duty. My team and I installed eco-friendly stoves in the hovels outside the cities. <br><br>Since I speak Spanish, I was given the position of translator. I realized quickly that my experience was much different than that of the other Americans. I got to speak and interact with the locals in more depth. Here is me with the local kids.</h6><h6>Also, the really little boy against the corn stalks (as little boys do) kept hitting me in the nuts. Little shit! &#128514;</h6><div><hr></div><p>Most people are looking for the next thing to add.</p><p>Sobriety is about what you&#8217;re willing to remove.</p><p><em>John Parker</em><br><strong>StrengthAxis</strong></p><div class="directMessage button" data-attrs="{&quot;userId&quot;:31867865,&quot;userName&quot;:&quot;John Parker&quot;,&quot;canDm&quot;:null,&quot;dmUpgradeOptions&quot;:null,&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true}" data-component-name="DirectMessageToDOM"></div><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/a-case-for-sobriety/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/a-case-for-sobriety/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><p></p><div class="subscription-widget-wrap-editor" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe&quot;,&quot;language&quot;:&quot;en&quot;}" data-component-name="SubscribeWidgetToDOM"><div class="subscription-widget show-subscribe"><div class="preamble"><p class="cta-caption">StrengthAxis is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[The Hardest Changes I Had to Make to Truly Feel Good Inside and Out]]></title><description><![CDATA[[Guest Post: Diana] What mold exposure, hormonal crashes, social pressure, and lifestyle habits taught me about real transformation.]]></description><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/the-hardest-changes-i-had-to-make</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/the-hardest-changes-i-had-to-make</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[John Parker]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Tue, 24 Mar 2026 15:00:44 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Jtvf!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd777e5ef-3a8b-4d49-b436-c88e278dce45_1714x1286.jpeg" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Jtvf!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd777e5ef-3a8b-4d49-b436-c88e278dce45_1714x1286.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Jtvf!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fd777e5ef-3a8b-4d49-b436-c88e278dce45_1714x1286.jpeg 424w, 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To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div><p>The daily habits I didn&#8217;t even realize were draining my energy, clarity, and long-term health.</p><h3><em>Decision Fatigue Around Food</em></h3><p>Food was one of the biggest shifts for me.</p><p>For a long time, I relied heavily on takeout - often ordering food at least once a day. At the time it felt necessary. I was busy, overwhelmed, and constantly stressed about what to eat. By the time I finally got hungry enough to decide, delivery would take so long that I&#8217;d end up frustrated, starving, and even more anxious about my choices.</p><p>There was a stretch when I was ordering often enough that several restaurants in Milwaukee started recognizing my voice on the phone and knowing my order by heart. It felt efficient at the time. In hindsight, it was probably a sign.</p><p>On one trip home, I met friends for lunch at my favorite Mexican spot in the Public Market. The owner recognized me immediately and came over to catch up. He ended up telling us his entire life story while we sat there nodding politely. We barely got a chance to talk among ourselves. That was one of the moments I realized maybe being <em>that</em> well-known at restaurants wasn&#8217;t exactly the health flex I once thought it was.</p><p>Sometimes it pays to fly a little more under the radar.</p><p>I still love going out to eat. It just shifted from being a daily habit to more of a once-or-twice-a-week occasion - something intentional instead of automatic.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg" width="1346" height="1794" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/a5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1794,&quot;width&quot;:1346,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:623060,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/191305207?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!TjBg!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fa5229d3b-9462-4ba3-ae7d-6475d8fb6943_1346x1794.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>We enjoy loading up on our favorites at Costco. We find their avocados to be superior to all other stores.</h6><p>What I didn&#8217;t fully understand then was how much control I was giving away. When you eat out frequently, you rarely know what oils are being used, what ingredients are hidden in sauces, or how food is prepared. Over time, that lack of awareness can quietly affect digestion, energy levels, blood sugar stability, and body composition.</p><p>John helped me simplify everything. He showed me cleaner, more predictable ways to eat that removed the daily stress. Once I had structure, I realized how much mental bandwidth food anxiety had been taking from me - and how much calmer life felt when fueling my body became simple instead of overwhelming.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note: </strong><em>A looming issue of my clients&#8217; success is around their relationship with food. When mouth pleasure has won the fight, my clients often get caught in the melee of decision fatigue and needing &#8220;flavor&#8221; non-stop. 

Nutritional retraining becomes necessity. I&#8217;ll often present them with a trainer/client deal: how about we keep the first two meals of the day the same, that way dinner is the only wildcard? 

More often than not, this approach guarantees that 2/3 of their meals are clean, healthy, and nutritious. Once compliance is met, even if only slightly, we continue the path of mastery.</em></pre></div><blockquote><p>Large swings in blood sugar can contribute to energy crashes, increased hunger, irritability, and reduced cognitive performance.</p><p>Meals that include sufficient protein, fiber, and healthy fats can help stabilize blood glucose and support more consistent energy throughout the day.</p></blockquote><div><hr></div><h3><em><strong>Stealing Energy From Tomorrow</strong></em></h3><p>Sleep became one of the most transformative - and unexpected - shifts in my journey.</p><p>For years I stayed up late watching TV or scrolling on my phone, especially after John went to bed. It felt like I was trying to reclaim time I hadn&#8217;t gotten during the day. Those late-night hours felt like freedom in the moment. But over time I began to realize I was quietly borrowing energy from tomorrow.</p><p>You only have so much life force - like a battery. 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He then made a side by side of me &amp; ET on the last shot&#8230;. </h6><p><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>Diana doesn&#8217;t know I added this ET comparison.</em></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lmwo!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc332597a-e554-4870-9875-027e253bbe33_2048x2048.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lmwo!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fc332597a-e554-4870-9875-027e253bbe33_2048x2048.jpeg 424w, 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We weren&#8217;t designed to wake up and immediately absorb stressful information from across the world - emails, breaking news, social media, notifications - and then carry that mental load from morning until night. That constant exposure keeps the nervous system in a reactive state, making it harder to focus, recover, and feel grounded.</p><p>The difference was immediate when I didn&#8217;t reach for my phone right away. Those quiet early hours felt restorative - almost protective. Instead of reacting to the world, I was choosing how I wanted to show up in it.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg" width="462" height="615.8942307692307" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1941,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:462,&quot;bytes&quot;:null,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;9 Ways to Think Like a Monk, as taught by Jay Shetty &#8211; The Simply Luxurious  Life&#174;&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:null,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:null,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="9 Ways to Think Like a Monk, as taught by Jay Shetty &#8211; The Simply Luxurious  Life&#174;" title="9 Ways to Think Like a Monk, as taught by Jay Shetty &#8211; The Simply Luxurious  Life&#174;" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!VB1j!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F5c2cdb65-20dd-4e1a-a363-940da7503bae_1920x2560.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>Years earlier, I had read <em><a href="https://amzn.to/4sUJYIL">Think Like a Monk</a> by <a href="https://www.instagram.com/jayshetty/?hl=en">Jay Shetty</a></em>, and one idea stayed with me: </p><p><em>Early mornings can be sacred because there are almost no distractions.<br>It took time for that concept to truly click.</em></p><p><em>Now waking up earlier feels peaceful, grounding, and deeply energizing.<br>No texts. No outside pressures or noise.</em></p><p><em>Just space to think, read, move, and be present before the world begins making demands.</em></p><p>Living more in alignment with my natural circadian rhythm has completely changed how I feel - mentally, physically, and emotionally.</p><p>Many mindfulness traditions emphasize beginning the day intentionally rather than reactively. Even a short period of quiet reflection in the morning can support mental clarity, emotional regulation, and better decision-making - all of which influence long-term habits and health outcomes.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note: </strong><em>My clients who don&#8217;t practice stellar sleep hygiene are at a loss. I can tell immediately what kind of rest they received before their morning training. I always have an idea of what I&#8217;d like them to do, but you would be surprised how often I have to soften their plan to accommodate poor sleep. </em>

<em><strong>Make sleep your hobby - have fun with your routine of winding down. Give yourself that gift.</strong></em>

<em>Circadian rhythm isn&#8217;t just about sleep - it influences hormone regulation, metabolism, recovery, and mental clarity. When people align their lifestyle more closely with natural light cycles, they often notice improvements in energy, mood, and training performance without changing anything else. I personally wear Blue light blockers and have seen a big difference in my sleep quality. We also close the door now so Nala doesn't do this (image below) in the middle of the night.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!CS9q!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7973dc19-6d63-4d52-a24c-322de9deebc2_2316x3088.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!CS9q!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7973dc19-6d63-4d52-a24c-322de9deebc2_2316x3088.heic 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!CS9q!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F7973dc19-6d63-4d52-a24c-322de9deebc2_2316x3088.heic 848w, 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Some situations that once felt normal eventually became clear sources of stress. Letting go of what wasn&#8217;t aligned created more space for healing than I expected.</p><p>I began questioning habits I once saw as normal - Botox, frequent nail appointments, synthetic fragrances, heavily scented products.</p><p>Water quality became another unexpected factor. Adding a <a href="https://amzn.to/4lA8ZX7">shower filter</a>, <a href="https://amzn.to/3PhuGiy">sink filter</a>, and using a <a href="https://amzn.to/4sRo0pW">Boreaux Water Filtration System</a>, opened my eyes to how much environmental stress we can carry without realizing it - especially in California. Drinking enough water, something I used to neglect, reduced symptoms like headaches, lightheadedness, and fatigue that I once thought were just normal.</p><blockquote><p>Hydration isn&#8217;t just about thirst.</p><p>Even mild dehydration can disrupt blood pressure, dull cognition, reduce performance, and increase headaches.</p><p>Daily hydration is a quiet driver of stable energy.</p></blockquote><div><hr></div><h3><em>Letting Go of Social Conditioning</em></h3><p>There were also symptoms I lived with for years that I didn&#8217;t fully understand at the time.</p><p>Random eye twitches. Weird bloating and stomach aches. Digestive issues that felt explosive and unpredictable.</p><p>Looking back, I realize I had a sensitivity to dairy that I simply didn&#8217;t want to acknowledge. Coming from Wisconsin, cheese is practically part of the culture. You don&#8217;t just eat cheese. You build long-term relationships with it. </p><p><strong>Growing up in Wisconsin, saying dairy didn&#8217;t agree with me felt like questioning the Packers. You just don&#8217;t do that casually unless you want to get socked in the face.</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!K-cU!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff70552e0-564d-4871-aac1-bb445f0f7cc6_1200x1600.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!K-cU!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff70552e0-564d-4871-aac1-bb445f0f7cc6_1200x1600.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!K-cU!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Ff70552e0-564d-4871-aac1-bb445f0f7cc6_1200x1600.png 848w, 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Pizza! Everyone loves pizza right? I&#8217;m the worst - no gluten, no dairy, EVER.

Of course my issue was made known to the family and a cousin asked, &#8220;you don&#8217;t eat cheese? Or, you just don't drink milk?!&#8221; 

Oh man&#8230; sometimes I just think about explaining it clearly: if I eat ANY dairy, we will have to fumigate the house from my toxic gas and replace the porcelain bowls. No thanks.</em></pre></div><p>The same kind of conditioning existed around drinking.</p><p>One of the biggest mental shifts in my journey was choosing not to drink. I remember our first New Year&#8217;s Eve in San Diego. Instead of going out, John and I stayed in. It felt unfamiliar, almost uncomfortable at first. But it was also peaceful. A quiet turning point toward choosing long-term wellbeing over short-term social expectations. </p><p>It took me months to fully shake the nighttime FOMO. Now I don&#8217;t miss it at all. I genuinely prefer to feel good - physically, mentally, and emotionally - and to enjoy life from a place of real energy instead of recovery.</p><blockquote><p>Alcohol and sleep deprivation both impair muscle recovery, disrupt hormone balance and place additional strain on the nervous system.</p><p>Even moderate declines in sleep quality can reduce next-day energy, focus, mood stability, and training performance.</p></blockquote><div><hr></div><h3><em>When Your Environment Makes You Sick</em></h3><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!NM_6!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F14ac5f5e-f4dc-4af2-a2c2-f92692e4bf65_4032x3024.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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I felt like I had aged 40 years overnight using it, so I took a photo to send John just to confirm I was doing it right.</h6><h6>In true Wisconsin fashion, I happened to be wearing my Green Bay Packers tank - because even during a respiratory crisis, Wisconsin allegiances run deep.</h6><p>Around that same time, I was dealing with something far more serious than I initially realized - toxic mold exposure in a previous living environment.</p><p>At first, it felt like a flu I couldn&#8217;t shake. I was constantly congested, exhausted, and mentally foggy. There was a musty odor in my bedroom that made me uneasy, but I couldn&#8217;t figure out what was causing it. Later I learned that a unit above mine had experienced a significant water leak that left carpet wet for nearly a month. When I connected the timeline, it aligned almost perfectly with when my symptoms began.</p><p>As weeks passed, it became clear the issue was larger than just a few units. Most other residents were experiencing more serious health problems and finding mold on their belongings. Several individuals were hospitalized, and one neighbor developed severe neurological symptoms after prolonged exposure in a unit affected by a sewage leak.</p><p>Eventually, it became obvious the environment was not safe, and I had to make the urgent decision to move out.</p><p>The move itself came with unexpected losses. I tried to salvage what I could - washing clothing with white vinegar, using a mold-remediation spray, drying items on high heat, and leaving them out in the sun for hours. Initially, this seemed to help. But months after relocating, mold reappeared on many of my belongings, and I had to accept that keeping certain items simply wasn&#8217;t worth the potential risk to my health.</p><p>I eventually learned that when mold permeates porous materials deeply enough, it can be extremely difficult - and sometimes impossible - to fully remediate. In an unexpected way, it became a very unplanned version of &#8220;Marie Kondo-ing&#8221; my life.</p><p>It was a stressful and emotional chapter. That experience taught me how important it is to trust your instincts about your environment and to communicate with neighbors. Many people stay quiet about health-related housing issues out of fear of financial consequences or conflict, but silence can allow problems to escalate. </p><p>That period permanently changed how I think about environmental health - and about advocating for my own wellbeing.</p><p>I still get sick sometimes - life happens. But it&#8217;s usually mild now and passes quickly. Feeling that difference has been one of the most encouraging signs that my body is truly stronger than it used to be.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>Once I was made aware of Diana&#8217;s mold situation, I knew how serious the situation was. We had to get her out asap. I waited for her father and mother to come visit and made my concerns known to them. They backed me up. 

We had all of Diana&#8217;s family encouraging her to get out of the unit. Although it was an emotional decision to leave Laguna Beach, CA, Diana and I had planned to move in together at a certain point. I secured our home in San Diego, CA, and she moved in 6 months early.

Environmental stressors like poor air quality, sleep disruption, and chronic inflammation can significantly impact recovery capacity. Sometimes progress stalls not because training is wrong, but because the body is dealing with underlying stress that needs to be addressed first.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2MY1!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fbef7997a-b821-4618-b696-1cd3a265d6b7_1714x1286.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!2MY1!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fbef7997a-b821-4618-b696-1cd3a265d6b7_1714x1286.jpeg 424w, 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Supplements weren&#8217;t the solution on their own, but they helped fill gaps while I was rebuilding healthier routines.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>I suggested Diana take binders, mycotoxin release formulas, and generalized health supplements during her mold detox. We also purchased an infrared sauna - which she used 4x a week for a three month period. Additionally, we put high-quality air filters in our home to avoid exposure from any items that harbored mold during her move.</em> </pre></div><p>Over time, John and I developed a simple structured supplement protocol based on the same principles we used in my own journey. If you&#8217;re curious about the approach we use, we&#8217;ve outlined it here.</p><div class="digest-post-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;nodeId&quot;:&quot;4674d3d5-ad7b-4e49-b629-0a99fb4b95bd&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;Most people don&#8217;t need more supplements. 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Coming off birth control was one of the most difficult transitions I&#8217;ve ever experienced. Regulating hormones naturally is not easy.</p><p>I dealt with severe skin reactions, including <a href="https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/21458-perioral-dermatitis">perioral dermatitis</a> - painful, inflamed rashes around my mouth and chin that sometimes resembled acne and other times looked like raw irritation. It made me self-conscious and at times reluctant to even leave the house.</p><p>During that period, John was incredibly supportive. Having someone who understands your long-term vision can make all the difference when progress feels slow or invisible. That kind of steady guidance and perspective is something he  brings to the people he coaches, and I&#8217;ve seen firsthand how powerful it can be.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>In my education with Functional Diagnostic Nutrition, I learned a plethora of information about hormonal birth control. I also learned that as a man, I needed to tread lightly in bringing this subject up with women. 

I recommended Diana read <a href="https://amzn.to/3Na4PbT">Beyond the Pill</a> by Jolene Brighten while encouraging her to make the best decision for her body.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!gxw4!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F15002cee-822f-48fe-8ec5-9c6a82a8e9dc_522x522.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!gxw4!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F15002cee-822f-48fe-8ec5-9c6a82a8e9dc_522x522.jpeg 424w, 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learning to regulate my blood sugar and prioritize protein. I used to wake up starving and uncomfortable because I wasn&#8217;t actually nourishing my body. Without enough protein, you never feel fully satisfied. Your workouts become less effective, recovery slows and energy fluctuates.</p><p>Once I began eating more protein consistently, everything started to stabilize - physically and mentally.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>Many people under-eat protein and don&#8217;t realize how much it affects body composition and appetite regulation. Adequate protein intake supports muscle repair, stabilizes blood sugar, and helps create the metabolic environment needed for sustainable fat loss or muscle gain. I encourage my clients to always center their meals around protein (animal protein ideally).</em></pre></div><div><hr></div><h3><em><strong>The Quiet Choices That Changed Everything</strong></em></h3><p>There was no single moment where everything suddenly changed.</p><p>It was quieter than that.</p><p>It was the night I chose sleep instead of another episode.<br>The morning I drank some water and waited before reaching for coffee.<br>The grocery trip where I finally made more intentional choices.<br>The workout I showed up to even when no one would have known if I didn&#8217;t.<br>The New Year&#8217;s Eve we stayed in.<br>The days my skin was flaring and I still chose patience.<br>The months my body felt like it was rebuilding itself from the inside out.</p><p><strong>Transformation didn&#8217;t happen because I was perfect.<br>It happened because I became consistent.</strong></p><p>Health isn&#8217;t built in dramatic before-and-after photos.<br>It&#8217;s built in invisible choices - the ones no one claps for.</p><p>And one day you wake up and realize: </p><p>You didn&#8217;t just change your body.<br><strong>You changed your standards.<br>You changed your direction.</strong><br><strong>You changed your relationship with your future.</strong></p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>The goal isn&#8217;t perfection - it&#8217;s building resilience. Sustainable strength comes from small habits performed consistently over time.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg" width="1456" height="1941" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/cf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1941,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:7664731,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/jpeg&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/191305207?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!g2G_!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2Fcf90a07b-e505-4769-bc82-0eefd521f913_4284x5712.jpeg 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Most transformations don&#8217;t feel dramatic while they&#8217;re happening. They feel like putting one step in front of the other.</h6><blockquote><p>Chronic stress - whether physical, emotional, environmental, or metabolic &#8212; activates the body&#8217;s stress response systems.</p><p>Over time, this can impair sleep quality, digestion, hormone regulation, recovery, and mental clarity. Supporting the nervous system through consistent routines, proper nutrition, intelligent movement, and adequate rest plays a key role in long-term health adaptation.</p></blockquote><p>If parts of this story feel familiar - the fatigue, the confusion, the sense that you&#8217;re trying hard but still not getting the results you want - you are not broken. We all have these tough seasons in life.</p><p>Real change rarely comes from one habit. </p><p>It&#8217;s about understanding how sleep, nutrition, environment, stress, movement, and mindset all work together.</p><p>That understanding is what led John and me to create StrengthAxis - to help simplify the process and support people in building real, sustainable strength.</p><p>If this resonated with you, we would genuinely be honored to support your journey.</p><p><em>Diana &amp; John<br></em><strong>StrengthAxis</strong></p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!3FrW!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F8e071814-ff09-4414-8043-1ad9be104f93_4032x3024.heic" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" 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To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber.</p></div><form class="subscription-widget-subscribe"><input type="email" class="email-input" name="email" placeholder="Type your email&#8230;" tabindex="-1"><input type="submit" class="button primary" value="Subscribe"><div class="fake-input-wrapper"><div class="fake-input"></div><div class="fake-button"></div></div></form></div></div>]]></content:encoded></item><item><title><![CDATA[Why I Gained 20 Pounds and Became the Strongest I’ve Ever Been at 35]]></title><description><![CDATA[Guest Post by Diana Mason]]></description><link>https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became</link><guid isPermaLink="false">https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became</guid><dc:creator><![CDATA[John Parker]]></dc:creator><pubDate>Sat, 14 Mar 2026 17:01:54 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/89bd467f-a6a7-4a1a-b966-3ffa256215c1_1200x630.png" length="0" type="image/jpeg"/><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>For most of my life I&#8217;ve weighed about <strong>120 pounds.</strong></p><p>Now I weigh <strong>around 140</strong>, with roughly <strong>20 pounds more muscle (</strong><em>with minimal fat gain).</em></p><p>One unexpected realization was that none of my old pants or shorts fit anymore.</p><p>At some point the SpongeBob song <em>&#8220;I ripped my pants&#8221;</em> started feeling a little too relatable.</p><div id="youtube2-pmAfOTLd1Sk" class="youtube-wrap" data-attrs="{&quot;videoId&quot;:&quot;pmAfOTLd1Sk&quot;,&quot;startTime&quot;:null,&quot;endTime&quot;:null}" data-component-name="Youtube2ToDOM"><div class="youtube-inner"><iframe src="https://www.youtube-nocookie.com/embed/pmAfOTLd1Sk?rel=0&amp;autoplay=0&amp;showinfo=0&amp;enablejsapi=0" frameborder="0" loading="lazy" gesture="media" allow="autoplay; fullscreen" allowautoplay="true" allowfullscreen="true" width="728" height="409"></iframe></div></div><p>But at <strong>35 years young</strong>, I&#8217;m the strongest and healthiest I&#8217;ve ever been.</p><p>Which surprises some people.</p><p>Because culturally we&#8217;ve been taught that <strong>gaining 20 pounds is supposed to be a bad thing.</strong></p><p>But in my case, it completely changed my life for the better.</p><p>This is the story of how I went from competitive athlete, to what people call &#8220;skinny fat,&#8221; to rebuilding my strength, my health, and honestly a lot of my life. It&#8217;s also a big part of why <strong>StrengthAxis exists today.</strong></p><p><strong>What I didn&#8217;t realize at the time was that gaining those 20 pounds would end up changing far more than just my body.</strong></p><p>If you&#8217;re interested in training smarter, improving your health, and building a life centered around strength and curiosity, you can subscribe to StrengthAxis. But first, here&#8217;s my story.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe?&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Subscribe now&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe?"><span>Subscribe now</span></a></p><div><hr></div><h2><em>From Competition to Losing My Edge</em></h2><p>For most of my life, movement and competition were a big part of who I was.</p><p>Growing up I was extremely competitive. I played soccer and tennis year-round, both at the state level. My soccer team won state multiple times and even went to nationals. 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I loved pushing myself and seeing what my body could do.</p><p>I even broke my hip playing soccer in middle school. That came with its own challenges. Add in broken toes, fingers, blisters, and a few ripped-off toenails and you start to understand how early I learned the importance of warming up and taking care of your body.</p><p>But like a lot of people, once I got to college that part of my life slowly faded.</p><p>Without organized sports I drifted into a different routine. Going out more, drinking, and losing some of the things that had always made me happiest.</p><p>I knew something was missing.</p><p>That competitive edge, that feeling of pushing myself physically, wasn&#8217;t really there anymore.</p><p>At one point I realized I had become what people often call <strong>&#8220;skinny fat.&#8221;</strong></p><p>I had always been naturally thin and typically weighed around <strong>120 pounds at 5&#8217;8,&#8221;</strong> but without consistent training I wasn&#8217;t particularly strong.</p><p>I still had abs, but I wasn&#8217;t nearly as capable physically as I had been when I was competing.</p><p>I wanted to feel strong again. I just didn&#8217;t really know how to get there.</p><p>Then I met John.</p><div><hr></div><p>John also has a habit of introducing me to experiences that are&#8230; slightly outside my comfort zone.</p><p>Sometimes that means heavier lifts.</p><p>Sometimes it means hikes that feel suspiciously like endurance training.</p><p>And occasionally it involves wildlife.</p><p>About six months into dating John he began introducing me to hikes that were <strong>well above my skill level.</strong></p><p>I found this old photo from a hike in Sedona that pretty much sums up how that phase went.</p><p>When we finally reached the top I was so exhausted I told him the view <strong>wasn&#8217;t even that pretty</strong> and that I was still deciding whether I liked him. </p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" 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Her comments relented&#8230; lol.

Truth be told: en route to Sedona, Az, I looked on AllTrails for "difficult" hikes and the first option was Bear Mountain (the only area where black bears live there). For me, I loved the elevation gain. I told Diana we were doing a "moderate" hike.

This hike had multiple false peaks which are a huge mind-fuck. Further, watching the sunset from the summit means one potentially bad thing - hiking home in the dark. 

But you know me, I packed two headlamps. We made it back from the scrambling-focused 2.35mi descent and celebrated with pizza. :)</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!P2P3!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F071b3c02-9bd7-46c7-8023-564fbb2c6a90_2260x1876.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!P2P3!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F071b3c02-9bd7-46c7-8023-564fbb2c6a90_2260x1876.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!P2P3!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F071b3c02-9bd7-46c7-8023-564fbb2c6a90_2260x1876.png 848w, 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Luckily this system seems to be working, and I&#8217;ve officially decided that I do in fact like him. :)</p><p>Being in much better shape now probably helps too. 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Taken shortly before we ran into a rattlesnake at dusk&#8230; always an adventure with the fearless JP, who casually tossed it off the trail with his hiking stick. John&#8217;s friend and I were less calm about the situation.</h6><h2><em>Strength, Structure, and a New Level of Fitness</em></h2><p>When I started following John&#8217;s programming, I was honestly shocked by the results.</p><p>For most of my life I struggled to put on muscle. 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REAL CURVES!</h6><p>More importantly, I feel <strong>capable</strong>. I can lift heavier, move better, and challenge myself in ways I never thought I could.</p><p>This kind of progress didn&#8217;t come from extreme workouts or obsessing over fitness. It came from learning how to train smarter and focusing on the <strong>Minimum Effective Dose</strong> approach that John teaches.</p><p>If you&#8217;re interested in learning more about that philosophy and how we apply it, that&#8217;s exactly what we share here on StrengthAxis.</p><p>Interestingly, when I tell this story some people assume gaining weight must be a bad thing.</p><p>That reaction really highlights how many people have an unhealthy relationship with their bodies.</p><p>In my case, the weight I gained came from <strong>building muscle and becoming stronger</strong>.</p><p>When I first started training with John, I said what I think almost every woman says when she starts lifting.</p><p><em>&#8220;I just don&#8217;t want to get too big.&#8221;</em></p><p>A lot of women worry about this. 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To build the kind of size people imagine would require training like a full-time athlete, several hours a day, nearly every day of the week, with extremely strict nutrition.</p><p>In other words, it doesn&#8217;t happen by accident.</p><p>What surprised me most was realizing that you <strong>don&#8217;t need to obsess over your body</strong> to get stronger and healthier.</p><p>With the <strong>Minimum Effective Dose (MED)</strong> philosophy we follow, training intelligently and consistently goes a long way. You can make real progress without making fitness your entire life.</p><p>If you&#8217;d like to train using the same MED approach that helped me build 20 pounds of muscle without living in the gym, you can start here. Subscribers get access to John&#8217;s monthly MED programming. New programming is released each month and designed for real people with busy lives. 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Including rolling out parts of my shin I never would have thought to work on.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note:</strong><em> Ok, this is mostly true, but I asked Diana, did you roll your peroneals and tibialis anterior on the lacrosse ball like I suggested? No&#8230; Ok, I&#8217;ll massage you.

Pain.

Cuss Words.

Why are you doing this to me?!?!

You're hurting me!!!

That, along with a healthy dose of Knees Over Toes Guy is how we solved shin splints.</em></pre></div><p>Within a short time the pain was gone and I could play <strong>pain free</strong> again.</p><p>Moments like that really opened my eyes to how interconnected the body is.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BuOM!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F303b10b9-30bc-4d25-b39a-351a41b18339_3024x4032.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!BuOM!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F303b10b9-30bc-4d25-b39a-351a41b18339_3024x4032.jpeg 424w, 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I had just left a relationship that lasted eleven years - essentially my entire adult life up to that point.</p><p>Leaving behind the place you grew up, your friends, your routines, and the life you thought you were building gives you a completely different perspective. Moving across the country and rewriting my entire story forced me to take the deepest look inward I&#8217;d ever done.</p><p>That&#8217;s when the real healing began. Not just physical healing through training, but mental and emotional healing too. Looking at what wasn&#8217;t working, what I&#8217;d been accepting as normal, and what I actually wanted my life to look like.</p><h2><em>The Puzzle Pieces</em></h2><p>For a long time I was caught in a cycle. Late nights, irregular sleep, people-pleasing, constantly running on empty. I thought that was just how life was supposed to feel- foggy, tired, disconnected.</p><p>What I didn't realize at the time was how much my sleep quality was affecting everything- my mood, my energy, my confidence, even how I saw myself. When you're chronically sleep-deprived, you start believing you're just... not capable. That you're not good enough.</p><p>Once I prioritized sleep and actually committed to a consistent schedule, everything shifted. The brain fog lifted. I had energy. I could think clearly. And suddenly I didn't feel worthless anymore.</p><p><strong>Another realization that came out of all of this was how differently I started thinking about food.</strong></p><p>For most of my life I honestly thought of food as just something that stopped the rumbling in my stomach. The goal was basically to fill your stomach and move on with your day.</p><p>I also thought of food mostly as a way to socialize or just enjoy something fun. Dinner out, drinks with friends, grabbing something quick between activities.</p><p>I hold the <strong>family record for most Olive Garden breadsticks eaten in one sitting.</strong></p><p>Eleven. </p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif" width="420" height="259.8305084745763" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:365,&quot;width&quot;:590,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:420,&quot;bytes&quot;:15762,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/avif&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/189920537?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!RoxJ!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F62167f77-e82a-45d8-a855-1a3160263c5a_590x365.avif 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><p>And yes&#8230; I still ate most of my main course after that. </p><p>I was around 12 years old at the time and stick thin. </p><p>At the time I was <strong>very proud of this accomplishment</strong> and honestly thought I deserved some kind of trophy. In my defense, I did grow up during peak trophy culture. </p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qxVy!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F383e4906-8870-402f-acea-9c2ad48abb26_700x996.jpeg" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qxVy!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F383e4906-8870-402f-acea-9c2ad48abb26_700x996.jpeg 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!qxVy!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F383e4906-8870-402f-acea-9c2ad48abb26_700x996.jpeg 848w, 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data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/383e4906-8870-402f-acea-9c2ad48abb26_700x996.jpeg&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:996,&quot;width&quot;:700,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:384,&quot;bytes&quot;:null,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;Trophy and Medal Awards Display Ideas - Driven by Decor&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:null,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:null,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="Trophy and Medal Awards Display Ideas - Driven by Decor" title="Trophy and Medal Awards Display Ideas - Driven by Decor" 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Things like revisiting the old food pyramid and encouraging people to eat more real, whole foods - and holding food companies more accountable for the quality of what they produce.</p><p>Regardless of where people land on all of that, one thing that&#8217;s becoming clearer is that what we eat actually matters.</p><p>Food isn&#8217;t just something that fills you up.</p><p>It&#8217;s literally the fuel and building blocks your body uses every day.</p><p>Once that really clicked for me, it changed the way I thought about eating and supplementation completely.</p><p><strong>I also started noticing something else over the years.</strong></p><p>There is an incredible amount of pressure on women - especially around appearance and body image. From a young age we&#8217;re often taught that being smaller is somehow better, healthier, or more desirable.</p><p>I&#8217;ve seen so many women normalize barely eating, running on caffeine, and constantly trying to shrink themselves. In some circles, that mindset is even praised or joked about as being disciplined or &#8220;low maintenance.&#8221;</p><p>But real health isn&#8217;t built through restriction or exhaustion.</p><p>It&#8217;s built through nourishment, strength, energy, and learning to support your body instead of constantly fighting against it.</p><p>The fitness industry has always sold fast transformations. But real change usually happens through consistent habits, not shortcuts.</p><p>People sometimes assume John has me on some strict diet plan and is constantly slapping donuts out of my hands.</p><p>Truth is&#8230; he&#8217;s not.</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note</strong>: <em>I am extremely strict with my diet as someone with autoimmunity - no gluten or dairy for 17 years now&#8230; But if you can tolerate it, you can eat it (I just can&#8217;t). 

I told Diana early that she was my gift from God and I would cherish her. So just like I do for my clients and family, I gave her the tools and knowledge to optimize her lifestyle. </em></pre></div><p>I still indulge when I want to. But over time I naturally started choosing better options because I feel better that way. These days my sugar intake is much lower now - not because I&#8217;m forcing it, but because my body genuinely prefers it.</p><p>I used to think being healthy meant staying thin.</p><p>Now I understand it means being strong enough to actually live your life.</p><p>Training isn&#8217;t just about looking better now - it&#8217;s about protecting your quality of life later.</p><p>It&#8217;s honestly kind of wild to John and I that so many people in our generation grew up on things like <strong>Lucky Charms, Goldfish, Lunchables, and frozen Jack&#8217;s pizzas.</strong></p><p>At the time it all felt completely normal&#8230; and honestly pretty delicious.</p><p>Looking back now&#8230; it&#8217;s a little funny to think about.</p><p>We&#8217;d actually love to know what everyone else grew up eating too.</p><p><strong>What were your favorite nostalgic foods as a kid? </strong>Feel free to share them in the comments. The nostalgia is welcome.</p><div><hr></div><h2><em>Creativity and Curiosity</em></h2><p>These days I spend a lot more time doing things that actually bring me joy- traveling, exploring new places, crafting healthy recipes, tending to plants and home projects, working on creative projects, and spending time outside.</p><p>If you read John&#8217;s <strong>Art</strong> article you may already know that I have a background in <strong>design</strong>.</p><div class="digest-post-embed" data-attrs="{&quot;nodeId&quot;:&quot;95c46731-6df7-4c43-ad6f-104e41a7e7db&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;Art Living a Life of Beauty&quot;,&quot;cta&quot;:&quot;Read full story&quot;,&quot;showBylines&quot;:true,&quot;size&quot;:&quot;lg&quot;,&quot;isEditorNode&quot;:true,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;Art&quot;,&quot;publishedBylines&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:31867865,&quot;name&quot;:&quot;John Parker&quot;,&quot;bio&quot;:&quot;CSCS, StrongFirst ELITE, BEAST TAMER, FDN-P | Ongoing coaching and guidance available via Elite (Stripe link below) | Link for 10% Harambe System Discount: harambesystem.com/JOHNPARKERBALLISTIC &quot;,&quot;photo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!M_-f!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F96bf3131-9709-45d7-8d87-f688e2bb5bbd_1174x1177.jpeg&quot;,&quot;is_guest&quot;:false,&quot;bestseller_tier&quot;:null}],&quot;post_date&quot;:&quot;2026-01-26T16:48:41.801Z&quot;,&quot;cover_image&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!lxCg!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F692db86f-3589-4166-9f8c-6b95f61aab4e_981x734.jpeg&quot;,&quot;cover_image_alt&quot;:null,&quot;canonical_url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/art&quot;,&quot;section_name&quot;:&quot;Training Philosophy&quot;,&quot;video_upload_id&quot;:null,&quot;id&quot;:185177507,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;newsletter&quot;,&quot;reaction_count&quot;:3,&quot;comment_count&quot;:5,&quot;publication_id&quot;:690533,&quot;publication_name&quot;:&quot;StrengthAxis&quot;,&quot;publication_logo_url&quot;:&quot;https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Eo-U!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F550d58ed-dda3-4da3-b2b2-f9f75a1ec72d_1280x1280.png&quot;,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;youtube_url&quot;:null,&quot;show_links&quot;:null,&quot;feed_url&quot;:null}"></div><p>Creativity has always been a big part of my life.</p><p>Lately I&#8217;ve been diving deeper into crystals and stones, photography, graphic design, plants, and interior design - my college major. As a kid, my creative outlets looked a little different: Shrinky Dinks, beaded animals, jewelry making, painting my new bike with glow-in-the-dark paint (which didn&#8217;t look too good in the day time - oops), and my Easy-Bake Oven.</p><p>I&#8217;ve really enjoyed bringing that creative perspective into the work John and I are building with StrengthAxis.</p><p>Creativity has also shown up in some ridiculous ways over the more recent years.</p><p>At one point, I co-ran a food art Instagram account called <strong>@<a href="https://www.instagram.com/girls.whofart/">girls.whofart</a>. </strong>The account still exists, but we&#8217;re not very active these days.</p><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Z734!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F73fe3df7-47cb-4725-825f-6ff846bddc9d_1104x402.png" 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Back then I was mostly using 10&#8211;15lbs dumbbells and I thought I was strong. Looking at this photo now, I can barely even find my bicep&#8230; lol.</h6><h6>Today I&#8217;m using 20&#8211;40lbs depending on the exercise (also I&#8217;m hip thrusting two plates with ease). It still surprises me how much stronger and healthier I feel now.</h6><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png" width="728" height="728" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1654,&quot;width&quot;:1654,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:728,&quot;bytes&quot;:1461622,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/189920537?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F07d5c070-4a18-4ee2-8186-4d390dafd70c_1654x1654.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!cq6o!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F0f45bc62-7c1c-4307-9046-f6de565ff3a4_1654x1654.png 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>These photos were taken when I first realized how much my body had actually changed.<br>The progress was gradual - then suddenly undeniable around 6 months in.</h6><h6>Back muscles&#8230; I truly never thought I&#8217;d have those! My glutes lifted. My shoulders and thighs became noticeably stronger. This is what happens when you train smarter.</h6><h6>I always knew I wouldn&#8217;t look like John - he&#8217;s been training this way his entire life - but this journey showed me that real, meaningful strength progress is possible for anyone when the plan is realistic, sustainable, and effective.</h6><div><hr></div><h3><em>Train With Us at StrengthAxis</em></h3><p>If you want to train using the same MED approach that helped me build 20 pounds of muscle without living in the gym, you can start here.</p><p>Before I met John, I thought effective coaching and smart programming were reserved for people with unlimited time or money. Now I know real progress is accessible to anyone who is willing to stay consistent and train with intention.</p><p>That belief is a big part of why we created StrengthAxis.</p><p>We offer two options depending on how much support you want.</p><div><hr></div><h4><em><strong>StrengthAxis Base - $20/month</strong></em></h4><p>Perfect if you want a smart, structured plan to follow without overthinking your training.</p><p>Includes:<br>&#8226; John&#8217;s monthly MED strength programming<br>&#8226; Full 4-week program progressions<br>&#8226; Movement breakdowns and training structure</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Join Base&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe"><span>Join Base</span></a></p><div><hr></div><h4><em><strong>StrengthAxis Elite - $50/month</strong></em></h4><p>For people who want deeper coaching, accountability, and faster results.</p><p>Includes everything in Base plus:</p><p>&#8226; Supplementation guidance and optimization<br>&#8226; Advanced training insights + private podcast<br>&#8226; Direct access to John for questions and form feedback<br>&#8226; Help customizing your program to your goals and lifestyle</p><p>This level of guidance was the biggest game changer for me.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://buy.stripe.com/6oUeVcePM9mw99F6Y32cg00&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Join Elite&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:&quot;button-wrapper&quot;}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary button-wrapper" href="https://buy.stripe.com/6oUeVcePM9mw99F6Y32cg00"><span>Join Elite</span></a></p><h6><strong>**Elite spots are limited each month so John can give real coaching attention.</strong></h6><div><hr></div><h4><em><strong>StrengthAxis is for people who:</strong></em></h4><p><em>&#8226; </em>want to get stronger without living in the gym<br>&#8226; prefer intelligent training over random workouts<br>&#8226; want to build muscle while protecting recovery<br>&#8226; enjoy learning about health, performance, and longevity<br>&#8226; want structure, accountability, and real progress</p><p><strong>If you want the simplest way to start, StrengthAxis Base is a great entry point.</strong></p><p><strong>If you want deeper coaching, faster progress, and real personalization, Elite is where the biggest transformation happens.</strong></p><div><hr></div><p>What surprised me most wasn&#8217;t just the physical changes.</p><p>The biggest shift has been in my mental health. Feeling stronger and healthier has brought a level of confidence, clarity, and calm into my life that I didn&#8217;t realize I was missing.</p><p>When your body feels better, your mind tends to follow.</p><p>If you&#8217;re interested in learning how we train, eat, and structure our lives around strength and health, that&#8217;s exactly what we share at StrengthAxis. </p><p>We write about training smarter, improving health, and building a life centered around curiosity and capability. It does not have to be what some might call &#8220;Booooring&#8221;! (My Grandma&#8217;s famous line)</p><div class="preformatted-block" data-component-name="PreformattedTextBlockToDOM"><label class="hide-text" contenteditable="false">Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published</label><pre class="text"><strong>John Parker Note:</strong> <em>I suggested that we add Diana&#8217;s MED Training Plan to this article.

Although I&#8217;ve had her learn skills with kettlebells - they&#8217;re not her go-to. She&#8217;s had several weird pulley injuries in her fingers from holding heavy goblet squats and at this point in my career, I know sustainability is of the utmost importance. 

We do what she enjoys, what builds her aesthetic, all in short and easy-to-follow programs.

Also, she has given me good feedback that most &#8220;normal&#8221; people can&#8217;t read my cryptic &#8220;high level&#8221; program design, so we simplified it.</em></pre></div><div class="captioned-image-container"><figure><a class="image-link image2 is-viewable-img" target="_blank" href="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png" data-component-name="Image2ToDOM"><div class="image2-inset"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_424,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_848,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_1272,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_1456,c_limit,f_webp,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 1456w" sizes="100vw"><img src="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png" width="1456" height="1147" data-attrs="{&quot;src&quot;:&quot;https://substack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com/public/images/28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png&quot;,&quot;srcNoWatermark&quot;:null,&quot;fullscreen&quot;:null,&quot;imageSize&quot;:null,&quot;height&quot;:1147,&quot;width&quot;:1456,&quot;resizeWidth&quot;:null,&quot;bytes&quot;:305100,&quot;alt&quot;:null,&quot;title&quot;:null,&quot;type&quot;:&quot;image/png&quot;,&quot;href&quot;:null,&quot;belowTheFold&quot;:true,&quot;topImage&quot;:false,&quot;internalRedirect&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/i/189920537?img=https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png&quot;,&quot;isProcessing&quot;:false,&quot;align&quot;:null,&quot;offset&quot;:false}" class="sizing-normal" alt="" srcset="https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_424,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 424w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_848,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 848w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_1272,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 1272w, https://substackcdn.com/image/fetch/$s_!Acxb!,w_1456,c_limit,f_auto,q_auto:good,fl_progressive:steep/https%3A%2F%2Fsubstack-post-media.s3.amazonaws.com%2Fpublic%2Fimages%2F28628dae-89af-40bb-b84a-03f5470ac047_2024x1594.png 1456w" sizes="100vw" loading="lazy"></picture><div class="image-link-expand"><div class="pencraft pc-display-flex pc-gap-8 pc-reset"><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container restack-image"><svg role="img" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 20 20" fill="none" stroke-width="1.5" stroke="var(--color-fg-primary)" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg"><g><title></title><path d="M2.53001 7.81595C3.49179 4.73911 6.43281 2.5 9.91173 2.5C13.1684 2.5 15.9537 4.46214 17.0852 7.23684L17.6179 8.67647M17.6179 8.67647L18.5002 4.26471M17.6179 8.67647L13.6473 6.91176M17.4995 12.1841C16.5378 15.2609 13.5967 17.5 10.1178 17.5C6.86118 17.5 4.07589 15.5379 2.94432 12.7632L2.41165 11.3235M2.41165 11.3235L1.5293 15.7353M2.41165 11.3235L6.38224 13.0882"></path></g></svg></button><button tabindex="0" type="button" class="pencraft pc-reset pencraft icon-container view-image"><svg xmlns="http://www.w3.org/2000/svg" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-linecap="round" stroke-linejoin="round" class="lucide lucide-maximize2 lucide-maximize-2"><polyline points="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyline><polyline points="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyline><line x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></line><line x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></line></svg></button></div></div></div></a></figure></div><h6>Simple. Effective. MED.</h6><div><hr></div><h1><em>Why StrengthAxis Exists</em></h1><p>Over the years I&#8217;ve been around several startup companies and worked closely with entrepreneurial ventures. Seeing how ideas grow made me realize something.</p><p>The knowledge John shares with his in-person clients shouldn&#8217;t be limited to just a small group of people.</p><p>Sometimes all someone needs is a <strong>good influence in their life</strong>.</p><p>Someone who helps them see things more clearly and realize they&#8217;re capable of more than they thought.</p><p>John has been that influence for me. </p><p>But beyond that, he's the most genuine, caring, emotionally aware, and grounded person I've ever known. </p><p>Building something with someone so skilled, hardworking, honest, and truly aligned with wanting to help people - not just make money - has been a dream. I know that might sound a little corny, but it&#8217;s honestly true. </p><p>So we decided to build something together. </p><p>Now we&#8217;re excited to keep helping people improve their health, build strength, and push themselves toward becoming happier and more fulfilled.</p><p>Not everyone resonates with this kind of thinking, and that&#8217;s okay.</p><p>But if you&#8217;re here reading this, we&#8217;re glad you&#8217;re open to it - or already living it.</p><p>And if nothing else, maybe we&#8217;ll convince you to lift a little heavier, sleep a little better&#8230; or at least <strong>buy a Ninja Creami, try rucking, upgrade your workout bench with a cat-proof sheepskin rug&#8230; and realize early bedtime is actually elite behavior.</strong></p><p>If this story resonated with you, feel free to share it with someone who might need the reminder that getting stronger can change more than just your workouts.</p><p>If my story can help even one person realize they&#8217;re capable of becoming stronger, healthier, and more confident than they ever imagined - then sharing it was worth it.</p><p>Life gets a lot brighter when you start <strong>building yourself instead of shrinking yourself</strong>.</p><p>If you&#8217;re ready to start that process, we&#8217;d truly love to have you train with us at StrengthAxis.</p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Compare StrengthAxis Plans&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/subscribe"><span>Compare StrengthAxis Plans</span></a></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://buy.stripe.com/6oUeVcePM9mw99F6Y32cg00&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Join Elite&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://buy.stripe.com/6oUeVcePM9mw99F6Y32cg00"><span>Join Elite</span></a></p><p><em>Diana Mason<br></em><strong>StrengthAxis</strong></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became/comments&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Leave a comment&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became/comments"><span>Leave a comment</span></a></p><p class="button-wrapper" data-attrs="{&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became?utm_source=substack&utm_medium=email&utm_content=share&action=share&quot;,&quot;text&quot;:&quot;Share&quot;,&quot;action&quot;:null,&quot;class&quot;:null}" data-component-name="ButtonCreateButton"><a class="button primary" href="https://strengthaxis.substack.com/p/why-i-gained-20-pounds-and-became?utm_source=substack&utm_medium=email&utm_content=share&action=share"><span>Share</span></a></p><p></p><p></p>]]></content:encoded></item></channel></rss>